Happy Birthday - I Still Don't Like You
Yes, yes, I know; my title sounds petty and ugly and that is the point. Tomorrow is the birthday of my birth giver. I stopped referring to her as my mom because she was never much of a mom to me or my brother and only slightly better to my sister. People don't understand what it is actually like when you go no contact with someone you loved, who was supposed to love you, whom you share DNA with. Just because you know they are toxic for you doesn't mean that you don't long to be a part of your own family. You miss the version of them that you wished they were when it comes holiday times and the fact her birthday falls shortly after doesn't make it much easier. I said in 2023, I was going to make it the year of me, I said I was going to talk about my childhood sexual abuse and in order for me to tell my story, I have to ...